Someone would probably think that my life has been in shambles this past year and that I would be horribly depressed and faithless. With everything that was thrown my way (heartbreak, sickness, disappointment), I have had the best year of my life! I attribute my peace to complete surrender to God. He challenged me to make changes in my life and live more like His daughter and that has made the biggest impact on me. I’ve changed what my thoughts go to and how I treat myself. Instead of self-doubt I think of my identity in Christ and I’m instantly reminded that I am powerful, brave, and capable. It may sound silly, but I have said it before, your thoughts become your reality. If you speak negativity over your life, you’re going to be looking at negativity. It will cover you like a coat in the winter. I struggled so much with awful thoughts that diminished my confidence, that I actually started to believe that I didn’t deserve to be happy.
When I fully gave my heart to Jesus, I knew I had to change the way I talked about myself. I wasn’t trash. I wasn’t ugly or fat. I wasn’t childish. I wasn’t unloveable. I wasn’t predestined to fail. I would be lying if I told you that my thoughts changed overnight or even that those words don’t flood my thoughts continually. I’m here to show you what to do with those thoughts. Just last week, right before bed, I was listening to a song I had taught a dance combination to. It was a beautiful love ballad, where this guy was essentially telling this girl he would climb every mountain, swim every ocean, and would do anything in the world for her. I had already been really down on myself because I’m not at a point in my life where having a relationship is a realistic option. On top of that, I had listened to that song a good 50 times that day and I started telling myself: “if you weren’t so freaking weird, awkward and constantly working, someone might say those things about you.” Then, I got really mad at myself.
WAS MY BRAIN SERIOUS?
I’m the daughter of a KING.
I am worthy of love and I may be weird and
slightly really awkward, but most people are. My job is important. I teach girls and boys to be brave, kind and confident. I don’t need someone to climb mountains or swim oceans to show me I’m worthy. I needed to believe that I was brave, kind and confident ASAP (Philippians 4:8)! I picked up my journal and knew exactly what I was going to write. I made a list of everything that I love about myself, everything that I am good at and everything that I am proud of – all the things that God says I am. You may think that’s SUPER egotistical and self-centered. I see it as self-care. No one will EVER see that list and that’s okay. No one needs to. It’s important to remind yourself of your own identity before satan starts to make up one of his own. Talk to Jesus and ask Him to root your identity in Him and to fill your heart with lovely words (Luke 6:45). Create a new reality for yourself and be reminded that you are kind, brave and confident!
I challenge you to make a list of your own. Read it everyday. Cling to those words and let them drive out the lies that satan tries to speak to you.
You are BRAVE, KIND AND CONFIDENT!