By the time most people graduate college, they have some sort of an idea about what they want to do for the rest of their life – especially when it comes to their career, relationships, and even where they want to live. Then, there’s me. I’m very go-with-the-flow, here-and-now oriented. I am NOT a planner. I am 10,000% okay with that. Just because I don’t have my entire life planned out perfectly, doesn’t mean there isn’t some sort of a plan. I guess the main reason I don’t really have a plan for my future is that my plans ALWAYS seem to fail. It’s one of the biggest lessons I’ve learned in my 23 years on this planet. That may seem like a bad thing to you. It’s quite the opposite. I am so glad that many of my “big” plans never worked out.
I’ve always wanted to live at the beach. As a little girl, while my friends were playing house, I was playing “go to the beach”. It was my happy place, and still is. I went to college near the beach and eventually moved within 5 minutes of the ocean after graduation. You would guess my life was a dream. Wrong. More horrible things happened in my life that year and a half than I could count. Why were so many things going wrong when I was finally where I wanted to be? In case you haven’t guessed it, I was completely out of God’s will. I decided the best way to change that was to leave. To forfeit MY plan.
I am in no way saying giving up is the answer to any problem.
I am saying that what I wanted was not what I needed. I didn’t need to spend my entire paycheck on rent. I didn’t need to live hours away from friends and my job. I didn’t need to be out of church. I didn’t need to be in a toxic situation. I was developing tiny habits in that place that would eventually ruin me. God saw that when I couldn’t. I am thankful to have had people in my life to encourage me in my decision to move, even though they knew it was a special place to me.
God took my plans and trashed them. He is slowly showing me how mighty His plans are for me. He has given me new passions and resources – none of which would have happened unless I surrendered to His plans. I’m writing this to remind you that you’re not a loser. You’re not a failure. You’re not worthless. There isn’t a master clock or timeline that we’re supposed to follow. Plans change. Plans fail. Plans also develop. Be hopeful in those developing plans. It’s God’s plan for you to succeed in His will. Timing is everything. Things may seem hopeless, but I promise, there are “far greater things ahead than any you leave behind.”
I am the most indecisive human being on the planet. Forreal. I’m never good at making decisions and I never WANT to make decisions, but when I do, I make it completely and with my whole heart and soul (get it). When those decisions turn out to be bad or mediocre I get super anxious and second-guess every other decision I’m making or have ever made. Way to go Stacie.
But God commands us to not worry about decisions. He doesn’t ask us to maybe hold back on our fears for a minute and look at them again, he says DO NOT worry. When my plans go right in my eyes I celebrate. When I think my plans go “wrong” even if in the grander scheme of things it’s exactly what needed to happen, I shut down. Fear sets in. Worry takes over. My self-confidence is depleted.
The answer is no?!
Why can’t I completely put my trust in Him and know His ways are higher and mightier and perfect? Because I think I know more than God. That’s why. Ouch. How dumb can I be? I claim I trust God, but it seemed I was only trusting Him when things were going MY way. When my path took an unexpected turn, I became the backseat driver that wanted to redirected the BEST driver ever.
But, He knows where I’m going and just how to get me there quickly and safely. He’s in control. When he takes me on a different road, I’m not going to complain. I’m going to enjoy the journey and really really try to go with the flow!
Enjoy your journey. Don’t let a detour become a defeat!
For the last few weeks, I’ve been making an effort to take Charlie on fun walks as much as I can. He LOVES going to parks for hikes. He sniffs and smells all around the trails and likes chasing squirrels and birds. It’s great because I get to walk/run with him and love on God’s handy work.
We love one trail in particular because it leads us down the river and along streams with waterfalls. It’s so beautiful. The birds sing, the trees are so green, and the sound of the water rushing over the falls is hypnotizing. Today we were running on one part of the trail where the water wasn’t moving. I don’t know about y’all, but God puts words in my brain on repeat when He wants me to focus on them. “Still Water” I kept thinking and speaking out loud (I’m a nut) and the obvious verse in Psalm came to my mind – “He leads me beside still water and restores my soul” you know the drill. That’s great, it’s a beautiful psalm. But I didn’t think that’s the way I was supposed to look at it.
In John 2, Jesus was at a wedding. (#galileematrimony) The party must have been rockin’ because they ran out of wine. What did Jesus do? He changed 6 huge tubs of water into wine, and it was one of the first miraculous works He performed. Plus, not only did he change plain water into wine, but it was good, good wine. It’s says after he did it, his disciples “believed in Him.”
I’m telling you this because we all have times in our lives where we have 6 huge buckets of water at partys/weddings and we don’t have the guts to as The Lord to make it wine. It’s still water. We don’t allow God to perform miracles in our lives because we’re too focused on the “water”. That water could be a friend we want saved, a job we hope to get, or a healthier life, but we’re too afraid to ask God to make it happen. And if we actually did, it would be good! Really good!
I hope this encourages you to talk with God about changes you wish to see in your life. You deserve 6 tubs of wine, not 6 tubs of something that’s still water!